Day 107. Sharing something.

 Look..there is Laker fans everywhere. :o :)

My brother and his best friend went to San Fran this weekend to check out a few bands.one of which was Two Door Cinema Club (check them out!) .he came home today with all these pictures of his trip..I have never been there..but i am planning to go sometime soon.

It seems lovely!

I hope he had fun :)

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 106. Death of a beauty.

Like any beautiful thing in this world..if something is not taken care of properly..it withers..and dies..

such thing happened to my beautiful flower from yesterday.

Good thing theres more where those came from.

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 105. Beauty..

These are BRUGMANSIAS. Beautiful..smell delicious..and also very deadly..poisounous..and toxic.

It can be used as a hallucinogenic drug..for its narcotic effects..but it is also fatal. Careful.

Natives would use them for shamanic intoxication.

 from Colombia..to Chile..and i was given one in California. :)

Believe me..when i say they are beautiful..the smell..is incredible.

I suppose who i received them from was incredible also.
i had like a bazillion questions about them.
So now that i know..you know also.
:)

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz



p,s, i had a great great great day today. did i already say that?

Day 104. Find different places..new people.

This is a fishbowl.

FISHBOWL.

Strong..strong..oh so strong.

Goodness.

Try diff things.

Eh.

These chicks were pretty mellow.

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 103. The truth is..

That you can't really cover the sun with your fingers..you can't lie to yourself..and say something is okay when its not..that you're okay..when you're not.

That fairies exist..and whatever nonsense.

Let's just let time go.

Let's just live.

<3

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 102. Clarity.

The day after..a storm..is always much clearer..and it today's case..it's insanely beautiful.

<3 <3

aren't they amazing beautiful?.

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 101. April 11..i will never forget you.

this morning i felt completely numb....hanging by some sort of invisible thread..by the end of the night..i couldn't feel more alive. I felt more alive than i have in years.

From completely tearing my heart apart..waking up..driving..talks with brother...feeling music so loud..i could feel my bones shake..front row seats to an insane car crash on a California Highway..everything happening in slow motion..one of the longest conversations in my life after..and ending in the above place..absolutely..crazy.

I'm incredibly lucky. I'm incredibly blessed.

These past 24 hours..have completely changed me.

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 100. Thoughts.

i just want to fly..fly..fly away.

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 99. A meaning.

i'm not a dreamer..im a doer..

careful what you reap Jack.

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 98. Ink

Some people have asked me..why did i get this tattoo? Why such a sad lyric? To be honest its how i feel towards life. Joy Division's famous words..."Love will tear us apart" is so true. So raw. Though it makes you feel absolutely great at times..sometimes it just rips at your soul..that thing inside you you never knew you had..those pains you never knew existed..that shit that you thought happens to others..(heartache) happens to every one of us..it tears your walls..it tears you apart from head..to heart..to feet..
Mistakes are made..but i think the point is..that if we admit them..that's all that matters. If we fix them. Even the attempt. I think we've all been there..on our knees..praying for better days...to some questionable existence..a heart..well..
sometimes you pick up the pieces..sometimes..theres no point..sometimes you just have to keep grindin'..keep shining..at the end of the day..the love we have for ourselves..is the only one that can never tear us down. we can't live our life trying to prove others our worth..they see it..or they don't.. i don't know if i'll ever find my heart again..but The show must go on...

what goes around..comes around. careful.

Love.Love.Love.

-Linda Cruz

Day 97. Any voice matters.

Even if you think no one is listening..others do. This dude was sitting outside my work..i couldn't help but hear him from inside..it was crazy..his voice was so loud..and felt like he meant every word of the song. I gave him 2 bucks..which was all i had..and took a photo. I wish i had the courage to sing my feelings out..most of the time..i just can't.

Love,Love.Love
-Linda Cruz

day 96. it has to get better.

its always much clearer on the other side right?

Love.Love.Love
-Linda Cruz

Day 95. !@#$

i don't want to talk about it. My head hurts. Hope y'all had a better day.

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

It's April!

Seems like Sunday's post didn't view as a video..so i shall share it here. Yeah im not a vid expert..bla bla bla.
My apologies for the rambling..and unusual cuts. also for the unexplained head motions at the end of the video.
This is me. Unusual. Random. Up in YO FACE wit weird ISSH. anyways..
Thanks for your support in this project thus far.
<3

Love.Love.Love
-Linda Cruz

Day 94. Feeling..?

Just feeling..feelings. Can't explain it. Just vulnerable in a certain way. a bit Naked almost..in emotion. Confused..in explaining..but Oh wait..i believe i could..i am just not particular sure it concerns alot of things that matter anymore. Quite Mindfucked. Today..was another Monday. Good..bad...a mixture of sun and clouds..i spent a good lot of it on the bed of my mothers truck..just looking up making sure the sun kissed my skin. God it felt good. Im quite tired. But i am sure that tonight..will be a sleepless night..like most Hot summer nights. The heat barely lets me shut eye. And there i lie awake. Thinking. Mostly..

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 93.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=fXXoESpIO6w

Day 92. Today i sort of..

Just...zoned out..all day. I even missed my post. BUT BUT BUT..it is one picture a day..for the year..not one POST..so..i think im alright. Today..was great. Towards the end anyway...Overall..it was overwhelming..Eh.

Just stop and look at the simple things..whenever you feel that way.

So..i started my day over.

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz

Day 91. Self.

Errands...some Italian lunch..an interesting film...a bit of running around discovering interesting shoes..a picnic..and just looking at the sky..then dinner with friends..and talks of who knows what. Today was simply great.

<3

Love.Love.Love

-Linda Cruz